Mordecai’s words to Esther rang through my head this past month when I was caring for my dad who was hospitalized and then in rehab after a major surgery.
I could feel God calling me for such as time as this:
to be a comfort to my dad and my mom as they had been a comfort to me throughout my life.
to be listening ear to my parents as they dealt with the struggles and frustrations of setbacks and side effects and paperwork in the same way they listened to me vent to them all these years.
to be an advocate for my dad when he could not speak for himself about his needs and his condition, just has he had spoken on my behalf to others.
What I learned from the experience is that I am stronger than I thought I was, that God had certain things happen to me in my life that would prepare me to be a responsive caretaker to others, and that all that happens to me and to my parents I must leave up to God.
Sometimes things did not go as planned. Sometimes I had to be more patient than I ever thought I would have to be. Sometimes the words that came out of my mouth to make something happen had never been uttered before.
Like Queen Esther who recognized that she had to speak to her husband the king to save the Jewish people, so I recognized that God put me in this time and place to bring help to my parents.
Though I did not know it when the month of July began, God had prepared me for such a time as this, and I owe all that transpired to bring help to my parents through me to God. And I know at least to some degree how Christ felt when he went to the cross knowing that he came to earth at such a time as this to save his people from sin and death forever.
My dad is on the mend, and in Christ we are forgiven and loved and alive eternally.
God is good all the time. All the time God is good.